di rumah saya banjir

people,im home already...
kelantan sedang banjir...tak terkecuali rumah nenek saya di pasir mas...
haritu saya pergi rumah nenek saya...best tgk air...rindu lak main air banjir...hehe
rumah mak sedare saya, pancing ikan dari atas rumah pn bole dpt beberapa ekor ikan...how interesting...kan3??

i finished my final..what about u??

im going back today....yippie????i dont even know...maybe...but im happy coz i finished my final...(gasila ikram, u not finished urs yet..=P)hehehehe... im going back n i know u r jealous..
for those yg kena pegi OBS on 28th nov, saya doakan anda diberikan kesabaran..saya tau 27hb tu raya haji tapi anda2 xkn xpaham lag perangai petronas ni...

for those who r wondering, im coming back to UTP on 29th i guess.. on that day, i will be running for new moon....i dont care even if i have to drive alone to ipoh, watch that movie alone n come back alone, i just dont care...my cousins are getting married in taiping 28th nov...im jealous..yes...i even have a cousin, 1 year younger than me n she;s already married..arghhh..its frustrating..

i just have to finish 2 years n half here, then try to explore the world to the fullest...TO THE FULLEST i mean it..i will do it when i have the money...but i need to marry when im 24(do i sound so desperate????)haha...whatever it is, my view become bigger..i didnt just aim to become a devoted housewife anymore...

i will be home, means no internet...just phone...n thank god i have my car, at least i wont be tooo bored at home...i start thinking what to do at home but i guess i will just end up in front of the television eating as much as i can n complain about my weight..hehe

for those who will be missing me, dont miss me....hehe...till we see each other again...

now that i hate it, i know that i really loved it

i hate it when my life is not perfect..
i hate it when i dont know who will be with me tomorrow..
i hate it when i dont have sumthing to look for
i hate it when the uncertainty arise
i hate it when i have to be alone
i hate it when i miss all the memories n hoping i will have all that back

i know i hate it now..
n now i know i really loved my life before n whoever with me before

saya obses lelaki???

otak berserabut...jiwa berkecamuk..paper semua susah namampos...
xsabar gile nk grad macam ni...loya tekak tgk buku dan kertas2..bile masuk exam, komposisi otak macam xbelajar ape2 pn...tau x org ckp sem ni susah n sem ni jugakla paling byk dugaan hidupku...kita sama2 nantikan result next sem ok...

semalam chat ngn zubair...buat saya sedar sesuatu..saya rasa saya ptt berubah..zubair ckp saya obses lelaki..adoila...malu pulak bile igt..mana ade perempuan baik yg obses lelaki..mest ramai lelaki2 yg pikir saya ni obses lelaki..teruknye saya ni..dats why la saya buat keputusan utk berubah...saya kena jaga imej wanita saya ni sebelum tercemar dgn teruknye..ok2, sama2 jugak kite nantikan hasilnye perubahan saya ni...

doa2kan saya akn berjaya dan dapat menjadi hamba yg lebih baik...^_^

aku adalah loser

ade sorang penjahat sedang meninjau2 rumah korang..family korang yg paling korang sayang.isteri korang yg korang jaga sepenuh hati, tatang bagai minyak penuh sedang ketakutan...korang usaha buat shield yg paling kuat n paling tinggi yg korang termampu...

tapi sbb satu kesilapan, korang lupa nk kunci pintu dapur, penjahat tu terus masuk menerkam isteri korang..masa tu tgn korang diikat, korang dipegang n korang dipaksa tgk isteri korang diseksa, dirogol depan mata korang..ape korang rasa???

adekah korang akan rasa brsalah sbb korang lupe nk kunci pintu???walaupun isteri cakap yg semua tu bukan salah korang, korang mest akan rasa bersalah ugak kan..orang yg kite syg, hancur sbb kelalaian kte...bayangkn brg sekalipun, jika adda org yg rosakkn tanpa korang mampu buat apa2 selain lihat bnda tu dihncurkan, dirosakkn, mest perasaan seperti seorang loser kn???

yup aku loser..ya Allah, kuatkan hati hambamu ini

sebulan~~

bilela saya mampu nk menulis ttg kebahagiaan..rindu betul tulisan2 gembira..bile baca blog org lain yg ckp pasal hubby, anak2, waaaa..jelesnye...nk jugak...

tsk3....bile saya nk ckp pasal hubby yg teman saya shopping sampai pengsan n saya kena percik2 air kt muka die baru die sedar...tsk3...saya tertunggu2 saat saya tulis dgn gembiranya di belog ini bahawa saya akn kawen..hahaha...dan pada masa itu saya akn buat2 gedik tanya, sape ade cadangan mak andam??haha..beranganla amalina~~~


p/s:arini cukup sebulan saya single...act, hati saya masih kt die...

sigh~~

sigh~~kenapala saya ni sgt konservatif..kenapa dalam hidup saya, saya hanya nk org yg saya syg...kenapa saya rasa saya hanya akn bahagia dgn org yg saya sayang...next year saya da 21..bile saya baca blog org lain yg tulis pasal persiapan nk kawen hapela...sakitnye hati..tuhan je tau... dalam otak saya ni hanya ade satu soalan, kenapa? kenapa?..

sigh~~ok, saya malas nk pikir...